MoTiVaTiOn Is killer...

It is so easy to procrastinate right now.  I have finished my thesis (I am just waiting on my final edits from my advisor, but my main part is done) and all I have left are a bunch of tests and a paper that I am just not motivated to do at all.  I currently should be doing something school related but as you can see I am on here :-P

I wonder a lot about my reasonings for doing things and I think this has caused me to get lazy.  Like why should I be killing myself at the end of this semester to get really high grades? You know that I am not going to get bad grades, but is ending with a 3.7 over a 3.65 GPA really going to make that much of a difference in the long run, or would be relaxed and really spending time with friends before I don't see them anymore a better option.  Right now I am trying to find a happy medium and have been trying to plan things with friends after my tests are done.  We'll see how it all works out.  It's just hard to personally motivate yourself to do something that you think may be unnecessary. 

I am motivated to do things I like. I don't necessarily like cleaning, but I spent some time yesterday cleaning up my desk and the common area in my apartment because I feel good when its clean. Like everything is where it is suppose to be and I can relax. I am also really excited to move (Not that I don't like living with Cory but I just thrive on change) so I have been slowly going through my stuff and throwing things away or making bags and bags of stuff to donate. And now I can't wait to be done with tests so I can continue on with my apartment hunt and maybe start my college scrapbook :-)

This semester I have learned a bit about group work and holding team members responsible for their work.  In the past, after a member didn't turn in their work by the agreed upon date, I would just do the work for them (because I would have to redo their low quality work anyways...) and mark them off in the peer-evaluation.  But this semester things changed and I wonder if this is me learning more about how to be a manager.  Instead of doing the work, I basically had to continually contact (Or a lot of the times I delegated the contacting to another member) the member to get the work done.  It was a lot of babysitting and it may have been less work to just do it myself, but as manager, I can't just do the work for my team.  They need to know what the expectations are and they need to meet them.  It is unacceptable for anyone else to do their part, and I learned this semester how to be more clear about the groups expectations and how to really hold members accountable.  It was hard, but I think this is me really learning...

Thanks for reading my thoughts